As usual, some of my sisters and brothers always got me in trouble with Mom. There was a "wanna be club" in the neighborhood and lots of us would say we were going to the store but sneaked to the club. This particular night it was my sister Wilma, cousins Katrina and Willidean and myself. We went in the club and we were dancing, dancing and more dancing. Suddenly the music stopped, oh my goodness, not mom, known as Pastor Baxley. She said have any of you seen may girls? Now, Wilma was old enough to go out but I was only about 14(not happening in those days).
I dropped to the floor on both hands and knees rapidly crawling through the club. I went out the back door where my other cousins were waiting. We took a short cut through the woods and went to Aunt Edna and Uncle Charles' house(directly across from our house). When Mom and Aunt Edna drove up, we were sitting on the porch, just talking. Mom said, you got by this time, but there better not be a next! I bet we never sneaked to "the wanna be" club again at my age -14. Boy, do I miss those fun days with Mom!
Mom, I miss you so much. On the day you left us, I cried out to the Lord so dearly asking Him please don't take my mom. But I guess my prayer at that time was not to be answered the way I wanted it to be answered. Because He did not want me to know He was going to take you from me (Us) on that day. I never got angry with the Lord, but I just wondered why He would hurt me (us) so bad. That I could not understand. Oh Lord that was the most hurtful day in my entire life. But I remember all those times we spent together. Going out of town, going to get our hair done, going to church together, going to the grocery store together and just riding together. Spent many late nights just laughing, talking eating and drinking coffee, tea, milk, sometimes soda (before we stopped drinking them) and water. Which was more healthy for us. I miss you so much mom. I don't have a riding partner now. Therefore, I do not get the chance to go to the different churches like I did when you were here. I know the Lord always know what He is doing, but I just wonder why He took you so soon. If I could roll back the hands of time (which I can't) I would still have you here with me (us). I still remember some of the things you told me and told me not to tell my sibblings. Well, guess what mom? I still have not told them. There are many things you took to the grave with you and I know there is also some things I will take to the grave with me. I still wish you were still here. But like you always told me when things would happen: "Life goes on." And it does. When the Lord took you I just felt like I could not go on. But someway, somehow the Lord blessed me and brought me through by carrying me when I could not carry myself. I will always remember the dream you told me the week before you left us. Which is always encouraging to me. Especially when it seems like everyone is against me. I love you mom.
I remeber always going to Aunt Lossie house before my mother had to preach. Aunt Lossie always had something special to say me and she would always make me smile. It has been 6 years and I still want you to know that I love you with all my heart. Thinking of you always puts a smile on my face. I love you Auntie!!
I remember one time when DesMonique was little we were in church and I had a bad habit of falling asleep in church well this time i happened to wake up with my head down and saw a pair of shoes. When i looked up I saw Aunt Lossie and she said "wake up boy how you gonna watch them children and you sleep wake up boy. I felt like if there was a way to get out of there I would have, that was her though she did not miss anything. I also remember when my Grandfather had passed and a few days later my father passed when i called her to tell her bout my Dad I was trying not to cry but when i told her she began to pray for me right away. She knew her children and we were her children. She treated all her members like that and that spirit is what made me join the church family. I still think about her and especially when I was ordained Deacon in 2007 i said it was because of her teaching and open rebuke at times that made me strong and kept me humble. Those are just a few and i will post more later. Aunt Lossie even though i was not her nephew let me call her that because i told her I felt like i had known her all my life. I really LOVE AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.
Grandma, I remember we would often time talk about if I thought I would ever have a family. Well you have gone on to glory, but I want you to see my beautiful daughter Grace that God has blessed me with. She is everything we talked about and more. I wish you were here to hold her and see her. Thank you for what you have taught me and I am going to make sure I raise Grace in the fear of God. Love you and hope you enjoy her picture as much as I do.
